Friday, January 15, 2010

What could have been ...

There are many times that I find myself picturing the things that "could have been" in my life ...

If I had only left the house 10 seconds sooner, I would have caught the bus & been on-time ... etc, etc ...

I try not to dwell too much on these types of scenarios since they are not what IS ... but as the footage and stories have been rolling in about the horrific event in Haiti, I have been racked with wondering - what could have been??

Last June, the other job that we were pursuing was a job as guest house managers for a short-term missionary guest house in Haiti (http://www.lazarusprojecthaiti.org/). We were offered this job in Shanghai first and accepted it, only to find out that we had been the number one pick for the Haiti position. We have often thought about what a different path our lives would have taken had we moved there instead of Shanghai. Haiti has continued to hold onto our heart strings.

Strangely enough, over the last several days my thoughts haven't so much been around whether or not we would have survived this disaster, but instead I've been thinking about how we could have been in a place to offer some real assistance to people in desperate need. And I wonder, is it strange that part of me feels sad for missing out on that incredible opportunity?

2 comments:

The Stagers said...

I love your heart Carrie! I don't think that is strange at all...it makes me wonder what God's plan for you is now in Shanghai and also what His plan might be for you in the future...thanks for sharing your thoughts..love Anna

Molly W. said...

Well, you have an amazing heart Car, but as your friend I'm selfishly glad you are in China and I wasn't left wondering if you were okay. But I have no doubt that God would have used you guys in a mighty way there too.